Living in a Field of Hats

some ramblings and reflections on working with students in Herts and Beds.

I’ve had questions… April 29, 2012

Filed under: Christian Life — Sarah @ 2:16 pm
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Much of my time is spent in my car driving between the Uni’s in Hertfordshire and Bedfordshire during term time, and the novelty of local radio often starts to wane late in the evening. So, I found my old mp3 player this week and let it play as I was driving to Bedford on Friday night. My mind started wander through some of the events of the last few months, and all of a sudden there was clarity in them. The song that had started playing suddenly made sense of what I was trying to process …

I’ve had questions, without answers,
I’ve known sorrow, I have known pain
but there’s one thing, that I’ll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus you’re true

When hope is lost, I’ll call you Saviour
When pain surrounds, I’ll call you healer
When silence falls, you’ll be the song within my heart

In the lone hour, of my sorrow
through the darkest night of my soul
you surround me, and sustain me
my defender, forever more

When hope is lost, I’ll call you saviour
When pain surrounds, I’ll call you healer
When silence falls, you’ll be the song within my heart

I will praise you, I will praise you
when the tears fall, still I will sing to you
I will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffering still I will sing “

Tim Hughes, “I’ve had questions”

This isn’t to say that listening to one song has sorted it all out – far from it. But it did clarify where I’m at – it still feels in so many ways that I’m ‘in the lone hour’, but that’s not a hopeless place to be, not because I’m not truly alone (although that is also true), but because the story doesn’t stop with me. There will be a day when there’s no more tears, pain or suffering because Jesus is faithful. And that is a day to keep on longing for through the many questions, doubts, tears and pain. But for now, it’s ok to keep wrestling with the questions, to keep admitting it feels sometimes like hope is lost and to not pretend to be fine because in all of it Jesus is faithful.


Ferndale in Focus April 28, 2010

Filed under: Christian Life,Church — Sarah @ 10:06 pm
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I meant to post this when I wrote it (in Feburary!) but forgot, but came across a copy of the church magazine today and reread it and saw just how apt it is for the church situation and how God is really working through tough times with us keeping our eyes fixed on him. woop!

New Verse for a New Year

The more observant of you will have noticed that the verse on the frront page of Ferndale in Focus has changed from the verse which Jon Delves introduced to us back in January 2009 to “Whatever happens, as citizens of heaven live in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ.” from Philippians 1:27.

A couple of weeks ago I was informed that it was down to me to pick the verse for the year and I really didn’t know what to choose. Flicking through my bible I ended up reading through Philippians and came to 1:27, the verse in which Paul summarises what he is writing to the church at Philippi about.

I guess its fair to say that in the last year Ferndale as a whole has been through some tough times and they continue. But that’s also true for so many individuals that make up our fellowship. That’s why I chose this verse as a verse that I thought was relevant to Ferndale in 2010.

Paul was writing to a church that had had and was having a hard time. They were learning that life as a Christian was far from easy. In this verse though, he is encouraging them to keep going because of the hope that we have. A few verses later in chapter two he points us to the lengths that Jesus was willing to go to for us. Jesus, as God himself, chose to become God for our sakes. He chose to die on a cross, with all the humilation that came along with that (Roman citizens weren’t allowed to be executed on a cross because it was seen as being too barbaric . . . in fact the word “cross” wasn’t even said in polite society!) He did that for us!

Though His sacrifical choices, we as those who have rejected God are able to become friends of God by trusting that Jesus has created a way for us.

So when Paul writes that we need to live as citizens worthy of the gospel, it’s not about us doing the right things, or saying the right things. In fact it is about us looking to the one who came from heaven and gave up all for our sake. Amazing!

So this coming year, things may well continue to be hard for us as a church and as individuals but ultimately we can rejoice in the fact that Jesus has enabled us to know God and that we are unified in that! We can trust Christ in all situations because He has done all that needed to be done. We go forward as people united around the good news of Jesus to love and serve the people around us.


Potter versus Sculptor February 24, 2009

Filed under: Christian Life — Sarah @ 5:52 pm
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So, as a Christian, I long to be more like Jesus and I know that one day that will be completed, when Jesus returns. But, in the mean time I still strive to become more Christlike and I know that God is doing that. There are things about me that I can see God has changed to bring them into line with his perfection (not saying that I am perfect in any way shape or form!)

But, in my head being made more like Christ was a good thing (which it most certainly is) but to use an illustration it was more like a potter shaping clay on a wheel, smooth, controlled and almost relaxing. Well it isn’t like that. We’re never told in the Bible that it is. We’re told that following Christ is not the easy option, it is hard and I’ve really noticed that over the past couple of weeks. As much as I do want to be changed, actually it’s hard, its painful and the only reason I’d choose it is because of the fact that the gospel is true! (Relay cheese yet actually reflecting an amazing gospel truth!). It’s not a gooey clay based shaping, its much more like a sculpter starting with a rectangle of concrete and chiselling it into something amazing. That sounds painful! It is. But, as a friend reminded me Romans 8:28 is still true. God will use this for his glory – through changing me into the likeness of his son, He will have the glory.


The truth about this world September 9, 2008

Filed under: Christian Life — Sarah @ 4:47 pm
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For many reasons, today has just reminded me of how much pain and suffering there is in this world and that so many people are suffering day in and day out. That suffering has seemed so much more real to me today for some reason-probably because I know the people and there’s nothing I can do! Nothing any of us do or say can ever ease the pain that so so many are suffering.

How great the hope of heaven – a certain hope at that. We can weep with those that weep, grieve with those that grieve and know that it is true that one day our Lord is going to come and make this world new and that he will wipe each tear away.

Praise the Lord